thin line in between

I had a weird dream.. it didnt seem real, but at the same time mayb it did. I dreamt about my parents' bestfriend who passed away early this year. I was shocked when I heard the news that time, I couldnt believe that the man that I just met few weeks ago n sat down together for dinner was gone. n suddenly out of nowhere I dreamt of him yesterday.
I was in this huge place/house where there was separate rooms, it was like I was looking around the place where somebody guiding me what's this and what's that. n suddenly we were in this room where it was spacious with windows in front of me, n next to the windows there was a dining table with chairs, n I saw him sitting quietly, looking blankly. I called him directly, just like that. I wasnt afraid or shocked, I was just surprise. I called him n he looked, I walked to him n called him again. the lady who were showing me the room looked at me in a weird way n said there's no one there n thought that I was crazy or something, n she left.
I didnt care. I just walked to him n called him yet again, I said "uncle, where have u been?why r u here?they let u out!?" I stood in front of him n talked. he said, "yes, I'm fine. where's Cen ii?(referring to the wife) is she ok?how is she?" I didnt know what to say, in fact I remembered that I didnt say anything. he continued, "tell her that I'm fine now and dont worry, and please take care her." he called my name wrongly, I forgot what he called me, but he looked blur, but yet he talked to me and I knew that he recognized me,maybe he was just blurred. it's okay.
Suddenly out of nowhere I saw kevin(his son) next to us. He looked shock when he saw his father, he numbed for a while n started to yell. he was angry n throwing temper at his father, he kept on saying why he left so suddenly, why he left n nvr said anything. then he bcame silent. I tried to persuade him I guess, n said it's not his father's fault n he's fine now, that's what really mattered so stop blaming him or himself or everybody else. ( I think this was what I said)
Then I saw 2 praying tables on the floor in front of the table, at the bottom of the windows. labelled with Chinese Gods which I didnt know exactly the name (Im sorry), Both were red colors with red lamps, exactly like what every chinese family got in their house normally. I took 6 joysticks out and lit it, but it was so hard to lit the joysticks I dont know why. then I asked kevin to come n pray with me, for the father. I over lit the joysticks in the end, suddenly there were like bunch of joysticks in front of me that had been lit, n I just used my hand to take them n gave it to him, my hand was burned but I didnt feel it, then I thought I was dreaming (well, in fact I really WAS dreaming) I prayed n thanked God that he protected uncle n he was fine.
then.. I woke up.. I didnt have the chance to say goodbye, it's a shame.

when I woke up, I knew it was just a dream n it's ok. earlier in the dream I saw sara, my friend. she told me she cut her hair b4 I went to bed yesterday. then I dreamt of her new hair, in the dream I met her n I was like " ur hair stil soo long la,sara..cut a bit only n u said short, wth.." then she shown me the back of her hair n indeed it was short,then long to the front.
anw, what am I trying to say here is that, I met her for lunch few hours ago, n I had the same conversation wit her. OMG! but different place of coz. just that she really cut her hair the way I dreamt. so I started to think about uncle Welly n whether that dream I dreamt was real.
I told my mother about it throughout lunch, n she was also surprised, she was asking why I could dream of him.(helooo..do I get to choose what to dream?) she asked whether I thought of him a lot, of coz not.. I hardly do. she was asking what he said, how his condition, how he looked, etc. I answered of coz..as what I remembered.
again... weird....
but inside, I still thank God, despite whether it's true o not in my dream n how is he then.
Thank You.. :)

dreamalittle

suddenly feel like blogging b4 i go to bed.. it's 5 am in the morning.. i just finished some stuffs for ezlina's cls..suckk as alwex.. ;P
earlier this day i went out to ikea wit carmen,indra and tepo. then we visited their sista's + family.. their nephew n niece were sooo cutee.. remind me of gilbert (my baby cousin, pic refer to previous blog) dunno how am i when im goin to b mother next time.. hahaha.. i wish to be like indra's sista, who is stil so hot n sooo pretty n stil hv lots pairs of shoes!! me n carmen actually counted, n OMG.. (she rawks!!) hahahahha LOVE LOVE LOVE SHOES!!!
then we came bck n i was teman-ing carmen picking up her auntie fr NZ. when suddenly, she got the reply fr Swinburne. i was stunned for 1sec, i knew for sure she was goin to b accepted (with o without the offer letter coming). she was jumping outta joy!! im sooo happy for her..she's pursuing her dream soon!! hehehe.. im sad of coz..we hv been togetha for like omg..since sem1. how am i supposed to go thru next sem without her. no idea laa.. but i cant say dun go..it would b selfish! just wishing her all the best.. stupid girl, u better do damnnnnn good in Swinburne i tell u..!!! or else... diee... hhehehhehe. im so gonna miz her around.. no more twosome, no more breakfast-lunch-dinner-supper. but wat to do.. :(
eh,lets go shopping soon!!! coats, jackets, boots, waiting..waiting.. hahahhahah
(i knw she's looking 4ward to it more than the leaving itself)

i wish i can go UK too..freakin expensive dream.. i'll keep on dreaming my little sweetdream.. though i wanto, but i cant. hahahha

xoxo,